Some energy. I couldn't escape it. Too strong for me to handle. Amidst all the strangest things that happened, the feeling is still there. Something I couldn’t explain. Something strange, something I don’t know. Something I’ve buried deep inside me. Something I have forgotten. Something I have denied of existence.
Because it hurts. Still painful. The wound has healed on the surface but still burning in pain deep down.
The tears I’ve cried on that day have dried up. It’s been done. It’s been long. But why does the pain still linger?
Happened by chance…
In a cab, one morning, as I was on my way home, I couldn’t contain it. It just went all the way down. Down my tired and dry eyes. It was all I needed to heed the pain, and say, yes, I’m human. I cried my way home. The driver must have thought I’m weird but I didn’t give a fuck, even if he knew. He picked me up from a man’s place. He couldn’t be any dumber than you are.
On a night of a phenomenal penumbral lunar eclipse, you held my hand and my body closer to yours as we watched the moon. You kissed my forehead, my lips…
I could barely remember.
I
know of a girl who had these in mind. I still know her, of the memories she
still tries to forget. Of some man… she once knew.
