Things come into my mind randomly, and in case you haven't noticed, i got one of the weirdest minds. Well, probably not. But yea, I consider myself one.
I wish you get tired of reading this so that you'd not continue to read about my garbage-working mind.
The last few days of school for the first semester of this year have been devastating (and I'm kinda like exaggerating things here, but yea. Bear with me). I would like to entertain the idea that this semester could have been one of the semesters that I've pretty much liked for a few reasons. It has really given me reasons to give up, but i got along with the pressure anyway. I just don't know if my grades did, I still have to wait for a few days.
Here's a trivia. I was never really allowed to spend the night at anyone's house for no valid reason. But just last month, i didn't even ask for my parents' permission to stay overnight at my classmates' houses (there were two of them). I just kinda informed them that I had to do this and that and that and I wouldn't be able to make it if I didn't do it there. So yea, they were like obedient parents. I love them.
Our family has the worst house that I've ever been to. Like seriously. I've been to my classmates' cribs and theirs were far better than ours. And my Mum is an engineer(civil), just imagine the irony. And I've been living here for 16yrs now (and counting). Our house could be the fugliest that you could ever imagine, but hey! I live here!
I have this thing which you may recognize as "paranoia" and yes, it's a disorder, a psychiatric disorder to be little specific. I haven't really consulted a specialist about this but i know for myself that I am a bit paranoid. I hate it when people leave me. I don't like the feeling of being alone. I get a little possessive over some things/people whom I do not really own in the first place. This could be the reason why I do not trust people easily. I still have to let time tell me if the person could be a good friend or not a friend at all. And this is what I totally hate about me. *sucks like hell
But i do know that someday, I shall be alone, with no one to turn to if all things fail. Maybe that's why I'm like this to have myself prepared? I do not know if that's acceptable to normal people. But this how I live, and I've been like this for quite some time now. Now, if you're my friend, you could turn your back on me as you read this. This serves as a warning :)
When I was a bit younger, I never really believed in best friends. I forced myself to think that they don't exist. Up until now, as I remember those days, I canI recall that I do have a point. But I admit that I do have a best friend now. I just find it a little complicated.
I don't really want to have a boyfriend until I graduate from college. It's not that I'm being selfish or what but for the mean time really, it is beyond my imagination to have one. And my best friend's dentist knows that i don't want to have one until my best friend finds herself one. That would be fair enough, I guess...
I admit to myself that I get too jealous most of the time. I get jealous when old friends get busy with other things, like new acquaintances, new friends, old,old friends. You get what I mean? naaah. You shouldn't. It's far from your bright mind. But the point is, I'm green-eyed, and that's baaad.
Can best friends really become ex-best friends? Somebody explain to me. Because, I'm thinking that the person that you now call your ex-best friend hasn't really been your best friend? Do I make my point in here?
I'd bet on lovers becoming ex-lovers.
Facebook hasn't really been good to me these days. Posts from different people are becoming annoying. And I get to discover things which could somehow DISAPPOINT me which shouldn't, in the first place.
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