Since the year started and a little before the year ended, I have become an android. 3 to 5 hours of sleep a day makes me one of the prettiest zombies in town. NOT.
I am the type of person who hates pressure from school. Exams are okay, who hasn't gotten used to them? What I hate are those things that eat most of my time when I can do something more productive like reading a good book or doing household chores or just anything for my friends and family, I'd love to do those.
Project Feasibility Study. This is the final requirement for our major class this semester, the last semester of my college life. Every week, we shall be submitting 1 part of the study. We've already submitted one last week, the technical aspect of our study. Days from now, the market study is to be submitted and I don't know the rest anymore.
I'd rather read our lessons than make these stuff, like I am allergic. Ugh, which leaves me to an option of quitting school. Ha, ha, ha. Kidding. I've come this far and now I'm quitting? I must be a moron.
One thing is, I don't really like the feeling of 'working' at an office while still in school. Yes, on-the-job training, I am disappointed. I mean it's really nice to be in the office with all these cool people who are always busy doing something but still have the time to talk and joke with all the other guys in there but I just don't like the feeling of being alone in there, not having the courage, so to speak, to join them. I keep myself distant, being that introvert that I am. And I still have classes to worry about which make me feel more disturbed.
I guess I've been ranting too much. I just needed this cause I don't really have anyone to tell.
Graduation day is less than 2 months away, this gives me a reason to do good in my ojt. Well, haven't been absent because hours are counted and the less I get absent, the sooner I can finish it and have more time for school stuff.
Going on with my ranting, I feel like I'm the kind of person who cannot really keep up with attachments, the friendship type of attachment. One of the most basic things that keeps me connected to my old friends is my mobile phone. I receive text messages from friends every now and then but knowing the indolent person that I am, I usually make my replies short and delayed. It's not that I am doing it on purpose, but it's just me. Usually, I forget that I've read/replied to a message not until I read it again and check my sent messages.
Ugh, my life is so dull and resentful right now. I need a break.
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