Jan 28, 2013

Strange attraction

Wandering in a strange place always gives that feeling of excitement and fear. Excitement for the chance of exploration yet fear of the unknown. But if you let yourself free and put fear in a tiny box, there could be more to discover of that strange land and of yourself.
So there I was, walking, looking around. Fear accompanied me, kept in the side pocket of my old black cardigan. Although I was wearing dark clothes, an oversized black tee, black skinny pants, my cardigan, and the exception, my tan colored Keds, I felt so light as if I only have me and my thoughts, unable to decipher which was real and not, I left it like that. Without a particular direction I trusted my feet to take the lead. The road was poorly lit, I barely saw what lay a few yards ahead even with my eyeglasses but still I went on. I came across an old man collecting old coins. I didn't bother looking since coins never had my interest. Some passersby took a halt maybe just out of curiosity and like me, just went on.
Finally, a crossroad! I had three good choices and without thinking, I automatically turned left as if some negative pole of a magnet attracted to the positive pole of that narrow road. I can always go back, I thought. There were stores and small to medium-sized houses. The road was fairly lit compared to the former. About 6 blocks ahead stood a waiting shed beside a slightly tinted old telephone booth. Was there a person inside? I couldn't tell but I was certain something kept moving. I moved forward, and finally saw it, a young man was on the phone in the booth. I decided to walk towards the shed and sat at a long bench. A few minutes passed and he was done and went out.
Wow! He was one attractive young man! Dark brown hair, deep eyes I was about to drown the moment I saw them, and his nose looked perfect. He was wearing a plain white shirt, a jacket about the same as his hair color, black pants, and a pair of Vans sneakers. just my type I thought. Did I hear myself right? Just my type? I threw my thoughts away and stared at the light post a few yards away. I love light posts.
I heard my heart beat faster as I saw him sat on the same bench two feet distant. If he had heard my thumping heart I'd be very embarrassed. I heard him murmur something but didn't dare look. He might just be talking to himself like what I do most of the time, right? But then he said something louder again and felt that he was talking to me so I turned and smiled. 'I've been waiting for a cab for 30mins now but not one passed by without a passenger.' I just nodded. 'Are you also waiting for one?' He asked. 'No, sir.' I answered. I could have said yes because I was a bit tired and could have been lost but anyway. He nodded, then came silence. I became more at ease. Silence was always a friend of mine.
He got up, took a step towards me then sat just a few inches beside me. God, my heart beat faster and louder I almost couldn't breathe! 'That telephone booth has been my favorite since I was in grade school. That's where I call my parents to tell them I'm home before we had our own telephone line. I live nearby. Sometimes, just so I can take a stroll, I walk all the way from our house and use that to phone my girlfriend...' After he said 'girlfriend' I didn't hear what went after, my ears chose to become shut. My heart sank. But why? I just met this man! I don't even know him! He could be a killer or a rapist just trying to play cool to get me! I told myself to calm down and prepare to run just in case.
'So, are you also living nearby?' He asked.
'No, but I've been here a few times already.' I lied. I did not want to give him the idea that I've walked a good distance now and I'm kind of lost. I live next town but just got curious so I got out the bus and tried to check what's in here.
'Oh. I also thought so. I've never seen you around here before.'
And why would he even notice? I'm almost like invisible to many. I've kept myself that way. But why am I upset? Ever since I heard him say girlfriend I pushed myself away, not physically, though.
'My girlfriend died 5 months ago. We've been together for almost three years now. But a plane crash took her life.'
'I'm sorry to hear that' was all I can say. But it made me more comfortable talking to him after he said that, but I was really sorry to know how their relationship ended.
A cab was heading towards us, I was half hoping it was occupied. How rude of me but I still wanted our nice chat to go on and on. It was a little past 6 pm but I didn't mind.
It was empty! The cab! My heart sank again, this time deeper. I didn't want him to leave yet. He got up, about to raise his arm and hail the cab but didn't. I got confused. Why?
'I thought you were waiting for a cab? It said 'vacant' but you didn't...' He stopped me.
'I could stay a little longer. It's still early anyway.'
That moment, I knew I was attracted to this good looking stranger.


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