Fragile

Do bad dreams purposely wake you up at ungodly hours of the night to slap you in the face? One big bitch slap of a dream that could become reality?

The dream reminded me of what I fear the most, when people you value just leave you.

I've always been afraid of getting too attached because my heart is too weak to take the pain; the main reason why I, at most times, distance myself to people. My heart, though calloused, still can't contain going through the same emotional distress, leading me to this bad habit of letting go of people, the earlier, the better, to avoid deeper cuts; intolerable pains.

I'm such a pussy I know.