Take it easy and just 'meh'

The television is too noisy. Problematic private lives of people all over. Issues of more importance are being neglected. I do have a choice not to tune in or even turn it off, but I don't have the energy to get up and do such or even find the remote control. What a waste. I can always choose not to listen. I'm not even watching. I have homework to finish and an exam due tomorrow noon. Oh, fuck.

On the other side, the positive one, today is me and my best friend's bestfriendship day! Normally, we'd hangout and pig-out but since we're miles apart, we'll just have to talk over the phone later Or maybe not. And she's coming home soon! Can't wait!

So here, I go talk about her. This could take about forever but I  can make a few adjustments. Hehe

We've been friends for more than five years now, knew each other back in the first semester of our first year in college. We'd always do crazy things back then, and she's one of the persons who I can do crazy things with, unmasked.

At times we feel like grownups, we talk about more serious things, like our families, our separate lives, our different friends. Those 'grownup' conversations made us realize that even though we're alike in so many ways, we're also two persons of different views in life and love. Like two opposite poles. She's a very sentimental person, cries at very shallow issues, gives importance to simple things, ceremonies, and just happy and content on what she has, and I'm like 'mehhh'. We used to have this huge, and I mean huge, difference on our music preferences. She's like the secondhandserenade-rhianna-beyonce-chrisbrown-owlcity-ish type (she is going to kill me for this) and I'm the 'mehh' type, but as we grew up and older together, for five years, we tried to influence each other. I let her listen to the songs I like, bands I adore, and etc. (I'm not saying that I have the best taste in music, but I didn't really like hers so I dominated heeheehee I am the evil best friend). So now we don't argue too much about music, we're on the same track. But on other issues, we still argue a lot. It's a very healthy learning experience.

There have been negative shits about our relationship, like we're a bi/lesbian couple (god, it's just unending) stuff like that. And we're like 'mehhhh, you're not even my type' and just laugh about them. Geez, so kitid their ulo.(no offensive intent in here, we're not against gay/lesbian couples, ok?)

I found comfort in her. She's the sweetest lady I know. Hugs me randomly, laughs when I trip myself or anything that has to do with my clumsiness, hits me for no reason at all. How sweet is that? She's so cute when she gets kilig over her crushies in private. Haha! She's like my sister. When I share things about my so-called blah love life that never was, she'd give me honest opinions even if she knows she'd hurt me. Like when I dated some guy before that she really didn't like, she did listen to what I had to share but also told me upfront that she's not interested in my stories about him (she just rolls eyes and gives me the 'meh' look). But if she likes the guy for me, she'd be super supportive all the way! There's this instance when she even suggested to tell my parents that I'd be staying at her place when in fact I was with some guy (her manok) that time. (Sorry mum, and pop, I had to lie about it, ang strict niyo kasi.  I know it was a mistake, I admit it and I regret it haha). That's how my family trusts her because they know nothing bad is going to happen to me/us if we're together.

She's always been the good girl, the responsible, the rational one. I cannot argue with that. She's just the best. When I'm on my mood swings, she'd just be 'meh' about it. When she's on her whining episodes, we'd both go 'meh' after all the ranting and whining and get ourselves some comfort food.

We have both accepted each other's differences, agree to disagree on some issues.

Someday, some lucky guy is going to have her, love her, be her boyfriend, marry her, and be the father of her kids. That lucky bastard has to go through my enormous iron fist before he gets her (haha nonsense). But as long as she's happy, I'd be happier. And vice versa.

We don't see each other too frequently (even when she's in Davao, weekends are enough), don't text every day, don't talk every day, but we know that when some shit happens, we'll always find a way to get through it together no matter what. Of course, that's what real and loving best friends are for.

This is a very unflattering photo of us both

I still have so many things in mind right now but they are all mixed up in my cluttered brain. So that's for now.

Here's a song which I've been listening to but not related to this post.

Don't wanna love, don't wanna hurt
If all that loneliness requires
Is just another's comfort
Better off being a lonely road
Cause there's beauty in being alone

Ps I want to show you a photo of our dogs (I am their master and love is greed haha but the owners are: my best friend, my siblings, and I, of course)

Have a 'meh' day!